unforgettable.

Love is a nasty habit; time cultivated it, and time will some day undo it.

i feel like i owe you so much even though we hardly met while you were still in singapore. you knew me by heart, even in my silence; i ran to you late into the nights, the few nights we met. and however brief they were, even as we spoke of inconsequential things, you knew me. and i was so often comforted because you did and never once misunderstood me nor judged me. you were always my inspiration to write; and your words- i kept them as treasure, learnt them, memorised every word, and i understood. you mean so much more to me than you'll ever know, and every now and then, i'll think of you and smile, especially when the tennis season comes around.

(Almost) Over You

I saw an old friend of ours today
She asked about you and I didn't quite know what to say
Heard you've been makin' the rounds round here
While I've been tryin' to make the tears disappear

Now I'm almost over you
I've almost shook these blues
So when you come back around
After painting the town you'll see
That I'm almost over you

You're such a sly one with your cold, cold heart
For you leavin' come easy but it tore me apart
Time heals all wounds they say and I should know
'Cause it seems like forever but I'm lettin' you go

Now I'm almost over you
I've almost shook these blues
So when you come back around
After painting the town you'll see
That I'm almost over you

I can forgive you and soon I'll forget all my shattered dreams
You took the love that you wanted and left me the misery

Now I'm almost over you
I've almost shook these blues
So when you come back around
After painting the town you'll see
That I'm almost over you

-Lila McCann

Dear Lie

You're dumb
You think you've got the best of me
You think you won
Misread my vulnerability
I've got your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I've learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Won't let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

-

only because i was reminded of awful him lately. he really rather annoys me. still.

只怕我自己会爱上你
不敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什么能够给你
爱你也需要很大的勇气

futile statistics.

You see, you longed for happiness but did nothing to try to achieve it. After all, did you even believe in happiness anymore? You complained incessantly of the system’s faults, and my flaws; you saw it, magnified it, believed it wholeheartedly, proclaimed it to the world, and there your heart was set in stone- you left no capacity for the benefit of a doubt, you decided that people were so often ugly and flawed and unkind, driven only by motive and benefit, and expedience was your mantra.

Maybe, if you believed in goodwill and focused on the beauty in others, you mightn’t be so unhappy; maybe, maybe if you learnt to let go of the misgivings and tried to look beyond my imperfections, you could have learned to love me; maybe, maybe if you didn’t view everything so negatively, and stopped doubting me for once, the future could’ve been so much brighter.

But you chose to remember- everything that was wrong about me, about the world; you chose to be bitter about the little things that kept you hard and guarded; you chose to allow an unintended result to overshadow my good intentions; you chose to hurt intentionally, just so you could even the score. Did it make you feel all better? Were you happy afterwards? I hope it did, I really hope it did; at least then I would know that your and my efforts were not in vain and that a nett gain in your favour was its result- because that was the only way you saw the world to be improving- by your standards.

I love the way his eyes crinkle when he smiles. I really do.

But so what?

You talk of freedom don’t you see
The only freedom that you’ll ever really know
Is written in books from long ago
Give up your will to Him that loves you
Things will change, I’m not saying overnight
But something has to give
You’re too good looking not to live
If you find yourself out of love
Shed a tear for the one you love
Tell your boss that you’ve gone away
Down your tools for a holiday

-belle and sebastian

And so i did!

-

My First Trip



to the US (:



i visited Boston, where houses were mostly red bricked



and there was this FANTASTIC dessert place in Boston's 'little italy'



where i went crazy (photo taking that is) haha.



across mike's pastries was the little diner we went to for delicious lobster pasta



it was really yummy, quite evidently (:



but the most expensive dishes in the world couldn't beat my best friend's (healthy) cooking- brown rice! i don't even eat that back in singapore. haha



Boston was full of animals. i saw a squirrel in a park and it looked like it was posing for a picture and so i did



i also went whale watching where i had a whale of a time, besides feeling sea sick midway through the trip



and there i saw mooses too; where i went crazy (shopping).



i also later went to NYC.



the bright lights at times square (:



and guess who i bumped into there? ;)



view from the empire state building- the lights the lights the lights! breathtaking.



night attractions aside, i visited a few islands in the day; the famous liberty island (:



looks familiar? haha, how much more touristy can i get?



i also visited coney island



where the annual hot dog eating competition takes place.



Last but not least, my pilgrimage to White Castle. haha. only because harold and kumar went there ;p

-

There are tons of other photos i'd love to share but i can't possibly post them all up here; and because im so horribly un-IT savvy i dont know how to upload photos onto those photo site things ;p i'll show you the album in full when and if i see any of you (:

my biggest regret though, was not being able to catch belle and sebastian in concert while in nyc. tickets were sold out. sigh :(

anyhow. here's a big THANK YOU



to YOU for showing me around and for being so accomodating, though i still think you're too much of a fitness/cleanliness fanatic ;) but you know i still love you (: